Why we only got 100 year or less?

Why do we only live around 75-90+ on average?? Personally I find that this is a really really short period of time for a person to learn about themselves ... I'm in my mid 30s and I still have no idea what I want in my live.

I know I'm lazy but when I put my heart into something, I will be the most hardworking person you've ever met! But there isn't much stuff that interests me that MUST to turn me into a workaholic these days.

I don't like meeting NEW peoples (it's hard to admit but it scares me a lot.. I can be very open about things, laugh and joke about it with family and friends that I'm close with.. but when I meet someone new... it's sooo hard for me to open up!! I can't talk and think when I'm around new peoples!

Lately, I have been thinking about a lot of stuff... I know I know quite a bit of stuff (kinda know a little of everything) but not good enough to be Pro.

I enjoy
Math...

Art (drawing)

Singing (I think I(anyone) can be good if I(they) practise a lot.. but I'm lazy and I don't sing often to train my vocal cord enough)

Writing (I'm suck at it.. but I super love the feel of writing)

I love typing (the joy when my fingers hiting the keyboard)

Piano (I wanna learn but never really start learning)

Swimming (I was once pretty good.. then I got fat and eczema on my knees have keep me around from my swimsuit!! If only we can swim in T-shirt and tights)

I have been thinking maybe I should start learning Math again... I love the idea of solving question
Drawing.. I havent hold a pencil for ages and I guess maybe I can start doing it again?

I think this gonna takes me a while to figure things out...
I seriously have no idea what interests me anymore!!!

Wondering

Most of the times, I think that stuff happened for a reason...

But when it gets too tough or too painful...

I start to doubt life...

Maybe it happened cos it needed to be happen... 

No reason or whatsoever~

Seeing doesn't tell you the truth!

Mostly peoples see... they don't observe

Presumption

Dealing with presumption being is like trying to reason with hexenbiest

 

Assumption

Ignorance is carlisle

Lies

How can you define a lie is actually a lie? 

Most peoples just think that others are lying because that person didn't say or do that very thing you want them to! 

(Unless it's crime related - lying is just another word that come out of the mouth)

Personally, I don't mind friends lying to me... it just made me think that they are scare/worried/care about me enough to lie... else.. why lies? 

I normally look away if I care - cos there always a reason behind each lies, so I respect their choices. As long as I know what I'm doing and trusting with... A little lies by someone I care about doesn't hurt much. I have faith in peoples... be it good or bad... it's a choice I made.

From my knowledge - peoples lie because they are lack of confident about themselves so they lie to themselves by lying to others (So to sum it up... who are they fooling with? "Themselves" and I respect that!) 

BUT being honest and lying are quite different in my dictionary~

You can be honest and lying at the same time... 

if you get what I means You will know how I feels~

BUT BUT BUT
I'm ok with lying doesn't means you can cheat on ME
In a romantic relationship- I cannot tolerate lies (but if you have a reason and needed to lie... if it's white lies... I can close one eye...(The "white" part is another whole level of "definition"! lolx...
Quite complex.. (I know! hahahaa)

Well... that's me~
I really do not know how I will feel until I'm face to face with it... right NOW.. I'm just speaking of what I feel at this very moment.. unless you are so special that I can look pass everythings.

True story

Always a victim if this is the case!!!!!!!

Things shitty peoples say

#uglypeopleeverywhere 

Appearance doesn't make you pretty... YOUR heart does!!! 

Seriously, my that Faker post does attracted some anomyous comments... I guess they are really really really guilty about somethings.. cos I'm not talking about ONE person in that post (it's a combination of different peoples with almost similar character....  not really the same in some ways)... yet they all can think that I'm talking about them!! (Bravo~)

It's just means that they are really doing all kind of nonsenses behind my back and act like nothing infront of me!!!!

Weird

In my dictionary, weird is somewhere between The Good and The Bad
I enjoy being weird!!!

This post is weird~ lolx
Please excuse my nonsense, I'm just feeling bored!

Action speak louder then words especially on FAKER!

Your actions speak louder then your fake words!

I don't base my relationships with what I can benefits from each others! (Full stop)

Although, my dad always say.... 
friends are always using each others! I do agree on a certain parts, like I need friends so that I got someone to talk to... to share my problems... accompany me when I lonely... well if this is "using each others" I don't mine at all!! I'm willing to let you make use of me ^_^ (lolx)

I guess, I'm blessed... because fair weather "friends" will auto leave me so that I won't have to make a choice of trying... I normally close one eye or avoid subjects~ (avoid talking about stuff you don't like~)  Avoiding might not be good for any type of relationships... but what to do?!?! I hate creating conflict. (I know some say they hate confrontation... but isn't creating conflict is a form of making confrontation? I will sure want an explaination.. if it's involve me)

I simply hate that I cannot be 100% in front of anyone.. just cause they don't like certain part of me...

100% doesn't means I have to tell you everything.... it just means I can be comfortable being with you without having to "think twice" of what I'm saying.. cos we knew each others well that we know it doesn't means anything offensive!

When I comfortable with someone.. I will be very relax and say whatever I wanna say.. .I pretty straight forwards...  I won't try to be another person.... I'm don't fake myself up so that other ppls will like me! (If I'm not too close with you.. I'm normally pretty shy~ lolx me shy.. what do to.. I'm born that way! Hahahahhaa)

I also don't get it why I have to tell YOU everythings... 

some stuff I don't wish to share ... 

especially when stuff doesn't involve YOU!!!!!

I can do million stuff in a day.. but I choose to tell YOU one.. just cause YOU asked... I don't feel the need to report everything to you... 

So in your mindset... if  I never tell you, it just means that I'm lying?!?!!?
(What a stupid and childish behavious!!!!! You act like an idiot!!!)

I don't lie (I don't find there's a need to lie anyway)... I just never say... I don't even tell my sisters or parents my each and every moves.....  I just don't get it why I have to tell YOU everything when you ask??

OK, this is just a random fussing.. 

I'm just dumping everything I'm not happy with "friendships"!!
This is not based on ONE person..... I guess, I do have a certain magnet that always attract the same type of "Peoples" ....(Need to phase this part ... because I know someone  LOVE to assume !!!)

I think I should trust my instinct... cos what they are will always be what they are...

I don't wanna have another friends that base their friendship on priority or benefits... Who are you that I have to give you the priority or any benefits?!?! 

I give, I bring, I smile, I say, I love ...

cos I want to.. not because I have to....

Priority = Family

True colors!

Cyndi Lauper ah!! There are more "colors" shining thru beside the good one! (Not being negative... just pointing out the truth!)

I don't believe a character will change much .. it just become more and more transparent when "time" goes by.

Toying with peapea

One random boring afternoon~

A rabbit that ariya bring home from "Build-A-bear" she said.. it look like Peapea...

The dog house at the background is from "Build-A-Bear" ... 

just got it for the sake of playing with Peapea~ lolx

We put on the "Build-A-Bear" dress on peapea! lolx

Goofying around with ariya mushroom ~

Something's somethings...

It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for something you are not.

by:Andre Gide

Wealthy

I'm wealthy not because of the amount in my bank or what I've own!

I'm rich because I'm living my life understanding myself and what going on around me. 

calculative

I do good deeds because I want to...
not because it will bring me good fortune
or because of karma
(it's too tiring to be this calculative)

I believe

"I believe in manicures.
I believe in overdressing.
I believe in primping at leisure and wearing lipstick.
I believe in pink.
I believe happy girls are the prettiest girls.
I believe that tomorrow is another day,
and... I believe in miracles."
- Audrey Hepburn

We all are blessed with "Life"

Life is full of surprises
good or bad... saint or evil
It's the results of how you live

We don't need to act a certain ways
Fake a certain self
To be love... To feel love
Be your ownself... Dont hide you true colors
The things that you hate may be the treasure in other's eyes
Be proud of who you are
We love to be loved

I simply feel so blessed to be surrounded with good peoples.
I praise because I want to let them know how fortunate I am to have you all in my life <3

Something's Somethings

时间的长短不能衡量友情的深浅
有些人是不值得浪费。。。我的宝贵时间的
看开才会过的精彩

Something's somethings

I always say I heart my life and the way I try to change the world with my EVIL thoughts!!!

It's the same as::
Influence others by inspire them with the ways you live your life, your wisdoms and love.

I'm so proud of myself!! Because..... I have been doing this all my life ^___^
(You'll know somethings YOU can never stop doing)

This world have so many so call "Goods and right choices" that turn out to be so nasty and bad!

So hopefully my EVIL thoughts will bring a smile to peopls who came across me ^___^

Touching one and the one will touches another and so on ^___^

I don't try to teach or help, I'm just trying to influence the world with my tiny sparks ^___^

Like this saying::
Why change the world when you can change yourself.

Changing yourself - making a statement - influence the world!!
Slowly(even if you use up all your life trying to) you will make a difference ^___^

I don't try to talk you into my religious .... I'm just sharing my thoughts ^___^

If you're asking... I'm a buddhist and I'm proud of it ^___^

We don't love to be loved, we love to love!